Sunday, March 11, 2012

He's calling you to do the "Boot Scootin' Boogie"


In a house full of student teachers, we don’t get out much.  But in celebration of a roommate’s birthday, we took it upon ourselves to embrace the true culture of Oregon: line dancing.  I love to dance, however, I wouldn’t consider myself gifted in the area.  But seeing as I always have a good time playing “Just Dance” on the Wii, and I’m always looking for new ways to get in a workout, I figured the night should be fun, or at the very least, eventful.    

When we arrived at the Silver Spur, the scene I saw as I walked in the door was not at all what I expected.  Yes, there were people dancing; yes, they were wearing cowboy boots; yes, there was country music; yes, there were even a few cowboy hats.  But the looks on the faces of the people dancing was not at all what my imagination had conjured up on our long (roundabout) way to our Friday night hangout.  And trust me, I had time to create a pretty vivid image in my mind, as we were lost for a good ten extra minutes.  Their faces were lifeless.  They weren’t smiling, singing, or appearing to have a good time in any way.  This is not what the movies show line dancing to be like; the people in the movies are always smiling and having a ball.

Not having a clue how to do the “shuffle step,” the “chasse,” the “hoedown throw down,” or the “wild wild west boogie,” we decided it best to sit out the first few dances in an attempt try to gain some sort of knowledge on this supposedly festive, but seemingly lifeless, form of dance.

After getting up the courage to brave the dance floor, our group of 8 decided to join in.  We weren’t exactly naturals… our performance during the first few dances was actually rather pitiful.  I stepped on a few toes, ran into a few “regulars,” and laughed my way through “Redneck Girl,” “Watermelon Crawl,” and “Boot Scootin’ Boogie.”  I watched the feet of the regulars, and man with striking similarities to Alan Jackson called out the moves for our hopeless group of “city folk.” 

Maybe our dancing was inhibiting the “groove” these naturals had established before our chaotic arrival, but I saw a change in their lifeless faces.  People were smiling (disregard the fact they were probably laughing at us).  People seemed to be having fun.  Maybe they liked the challenge of having to dance around a bunch of obstacles.  Maybe they liked seeing new faces.  Maybe they just really liked the way I was singing “Boot Scootin’ Boogie.”  But there was finally joy on the dance floor. 

Sometimes God brings us into situations where we feel like we have a metaphorical pair of two left feet.  It can be intimidating.  You might end up feeling like you have nothing of value or skill to offer.  And you may feel like you’d prefer to sit outside the dance floor.  I don’t mean to make light of the importance of God’s call with my reference to line dancing; following His will can be a scary and intimidating thing.  But it is an important truth to remember that God uses us in our weaknesses to be lights and servants to the world around us. 

“And He has said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.’  Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.”  -2 Corinthians 12:9

Prepare to be surprised in how God uses your weaknesses (possibly even more than your strengths) in your service.  Maybe your role in service will end up looking a lot different than you imagined, but trust that God has the power to use you in the way He calls you… even if He’s calling you to do the “Boot Scootin’ Boogie.” 

Monday, February 13, 2012

He will stay in with me at recess


One of my favorite classroom management strategies is called “Love and Logic.”  Essentially, you give students choices rather than forcing them to do something.  Here are some potential Love and Logic phrases that might come out of my mouth on a typical school day:

 “Well, you can either work on this assignment now, or you can work on it during our class party this afternoon.”

“That’s a bummer that you chose to do that.”

“How are we going to make a better choice next time?”

“I understand that you are feeling frustrated, but do you think that attitude is helping you right now?”

“I am sad you’re making that choice.”

“I’m not the one keeping you in from recess today, it is your own choices that keep you in.”

“I will give you 30 more seconds to be upset, and then you can either get back to working, or we can talk about this with your parents.”

You get the point, right?  As a teacher, I like to give my students choices.  I want them to “own” their own choices and actions.  I have found this method has so many benefits: it does not make the student feel inferior, it gives students the power to make their own choices, it helps students learn to live with the consequences of their actions, and it keeps me from being the “bad guy.”

It seems like God likes using Love and Logic too.  (Which makes sense, seeing as he is the greatest teacher ever.)  God likes to leave things open ended for me; sometimes people call it “free will.”  I like to call it “Jill-freaks-out-because-God-won’t-tell-her-exactly-what-to-do.”  Anyone who has lived with me is probably well aware that I am indecisive.  I hate making choices because I hate that I don’t know the outcome.  It’s come to the point where I can only buy one kind of cereal at a time or else I will spend a good 5 or more minutes trying to figure out which one to have for breakfast… and that is time I do not have to waste in the mornings. 

I’m heading into a time of my life that involves a lot of decision-making.  I’m graduating from college.  I have to decide what I actually want to do with my life.  Sure, I want to be a teacher, but where?  Should I settle for being a substitute or should I keep searching for a full-time position?  Should I stay here in Oregon, or should I go home to Washington?  Do I do the “unthinkable” and move back in with Mom and Dad?  Do I take time off to travel?  Do I go on a mission trip?  Do I find an apartment for myself or do I try to cut the bills by living with friends? 

I DON’T KNOW!  I don’t want to make any more decisions. 

I’m sure God looks down and smiles at my while I struggle through the painful process of decision-making in a very similar way that I watch my own students contemplate the benefits of doing their math work “now or later.”  For the moment, it seems as if my sweet students hate me because I have suddenly made them accountable for their own actions: they choose and they deal with what comes from that choice. 

I wouldn’t say that I “hate” God for making me choose.  In fact, it is a blessing that he gives me the choice.  I can choose anything and God will go with me.  There is not one choice I could make that God would throw in the towel and say “forget it, she chose the wrong path.”  If I have a student who chooses to goof off during math time and therefore “chooses” to stay in at recess, I stay with them.  I forgo lunch in the staff room to spend my lunch in the class, prodding them through their fraction worksheet. 

And so it is with God.  If I choose it, He will (metaphorically) stay in at recess with me.  So what’s really to worry about?  The best I can do is follow what I know is “right,” learn from the mistakes that I have made, and trust that God will go with me.